After the day i had i just wanted to get away from it all, only i could manage to get suspended on the first day back. Waiting for Glen to finish was a drag so i sat there playing angry birds, he soon arrived and we got in the car. He put Linkin Park on loud sensing i wasnt in the mood to talk, we stopped at mine and i went and got my guitar and amp, i also grabbed a few things as i would probably be staying at Glens house because his mom was working the night shift at the hospital and his dad was working late at the mental institue. Climbing back in the car we headed to his house singing the music as we go along, as we got closer to the house Glen turned the music down as we got closer to the house.

Going into the house it was quiet, it seemed even Spencer was out, heading upstairs to his room i put my things in there before heading into the bathroom

"what are you doing here?……"

Looking towards the voice i see Spencer in the bath,without saying a word i turned and walked out. Usually i would have some cocky comment to make, or id flirt but something stopped me, i walked into Glen’s room and plugged my guitar in and started to play. Glen came in and started to play the drums, slowly the music took my mind off what i had just seen. My mind was soon back with Spencer as i watched her coming out of the bathroom the gap in the door,she had just a small towel on covering her body nicely, still showing off her perfect legs. Suddenly i went wrong on the guitar and i couldnt play no-more, i watched as she went into her room…i had forgotten how perfect her body was.

"Ashley stop staring at Spencer, you know nothing is going to happened between you she already made that clear"

Glen was right, i let my mind drift back to four years ago when i was best mates with Spencerand not Glen. We were hanging in her bedroom, she read one of her magazines and i was writing a song on my accustic guitar, we had thekind of friendship where we could sit around all day without saying anything and enjoy eachothers company. Spencer was the only person i had told i was gay which she accepted, it didnt change anything between us really, Not until i started to get feelings for Spencer that i couldnt hide anymore, i placed my guitar and faced her taking a deep breath.

"Hey Spence can we walk?"

"sure Ash whats up?"

"i think i like a girl?"

"Really!….. do i know her?"

"yeah"

"Who is she?"

"Its…..Its…"

"helps if you say her name Ash"

"Ok…..Its you!"

Spencer didnt say anything after that, she backed away and we sat in silence for what seemed like a lifetime. I grabbed my stuff and left, we didnt mention it again and we stopped talking all together. In the following months Glen and i became close mates, we confided in eachother about our sexualities and ended up being just as close as Spencer and i. We went down the wrong roads as we tried to cope with our emotions but we helped eachother through it.

I still spent all my time at the Carlin house, but Spencer and i never spoke. Half the time she would be at mine with Kyla as they became close, i couldnt admit it or even show it but i missed Spencer. I missed her laugh, her soft voice, and the way we would lie close at night to watch dvds and things were perfect. i know it didnt mean anything to her but those cuddles made me feel alive.

"Ashley when will you move on?"

I watched as he walked out of the room, he was right i couldnt get over Spencer. I had slept with over a hundred girls since me and Spencer fell out, and none of them helped me to get over her. I followed Glen down stair and headed into the kitchen where he was, as i walked in i saw him stood next to Spencer making something to eat. I suddenly felt sick and walked out to get some fresh air, what was she doing to me… all my confidence had gone and i felt like a lost child.