What the Fucking Fuck?

I think the room is spinning. Oh god I’m going to throw up.

Don’t show weakness Ashley! LIE! It’s in your blood!

“And?” I say calmly.

Caroline searched my face for any emotion. She can always tell when I’m lieing. Danm her. “She quit.”

I raise my eyebrow. “how the fuck can you quit?”

Seriously show me where to sign up bitches. I will ditch you all in a heart beat.

“She fell from grace.” Greg rolled his eyes at me.

My whole face felt hot as it turned whiter.

I felt woozy again. Danm it!  I sit down on the couch and look up at the others.

“She started to feel more human than was necessary for us.” Caroline closed her eyes. “She ripped her grace out and became human again.” She locked eyes with me. “a true human. With actual feelings and she could…eat.”

Caroline always told me about her human life when I was younger and how she loved to cook and try new things. It must have been hard to be not able to eat.

I didn’t even want to ask how you rip your grace out. It seems painful and unnecessary

“So why is it such a big deal if she goes to heaven or not?” I whisper. I’m becoming Delirious… I have to be.

I’m so lost.

Lost and Delirious! Ha! That was a sick movie. Top 5.

Fuck I wonder sometimes if I’m really A.D.D. and no one had the heart to tell me.

“She fell from Grace Ashley…. She can’t be trusted in Heaven. She could turn… being human again after experiencing being us can be hard to let go.” Simon cracks his neck.

Now that’s sick. Seriously… I’ll fucking crack your neck for you. Just ask.

“I need a minute.” I get up and casually stroll out the door. I think I would have found some explosive and blew up the house if I didn’t leave.

Ahh… calm down.

I make my way to the edge of the water.

Ok. lets think this through. They aren’t telling me something. They wouldn’t have freaked out so bad if that was it. Spencer wouldn’t have sexually attacked my with her sexy body if that was it.