Ending of Episode 4 Vivian´s thoughts..

She´s thinking how different things used to be before she had to move away. She remembers how they met…..

 She was in the classroom and Aster enters, she is a new student everything dissapears for Vivian all she sees is Aster all the noise is gone, then their eyes meet for a few seconds and then the noise of the crown starts to fade back in. A few days go by and neither says anything, Aster is usually outgoing and is never intimidated by anyone but there´s something different about Vivian she just can´t seem to be able to speak to her becuase her nerves get the best of her whenever she is around her and she is speechless.

But finally the oppotunity they have both been waiting for comes the teacher assigns group projects and they have been placed together to do the assignment. So they finally speak to each other and reach an agreement on how they will work on the project. So days go by they work on the project but neither says anything about what they´re feeling. So the project is almost finished and yet they have not talked about what they feel.

So Vivian tells her friend Breck about what she´s feeling and he tells her that she should go for it before it´s too late, so when she and Aster are working on the final part of the project at Aster´s house they´re on the bed and Vivian gets a text but she doesn´t worry about it at the beginning until Aster says it´s from Breck Vivian tries to take the phone away from Aster they struggle for a while then they fall off the bed to the floor, Aster falls on Vivian and she asks are you alright?…

Vivian looks her in the eyes for a few seconds before saying yes i´m great never better….. and kisses her.

Then they talk and they read the message together and it says: ¨Viv have you told her how you really feel yet? come on don´t be afraid of what can happen you never know how things turn out but if you never go for it you will always live with that regret and the question what would have been? what would have happend? well ok more like 2 questiones but who´s counting.. go girl don´t let happiness pass you by because that´s what this could lead to and you know it… well anyways don´t be a chicken and tell that her how she makes you feel, you can do it¨… They laugh for a while and they talk about how from the moment they saw each other they did nothing else but think about each other they kiss again…. Then they leave Aster´s house and that´s when they´re on the street and those boys start saying how fine Aster is and Vivian tells them ¨she´s with me, I´m with her¨, and gives aster the paper that says: ¨Im with You¨.

Then Vivian remembers a few other memories of her and Aster and how happy they were before she had to move, she remembers the WTC incident on 9/11 and how that changed everything…. then she remembers her dad telling her they had to leave and she remembers thinking how unfair that was because she loved Aster so much how was she going to say goodbye to the person she loves the most and thinking how was she to tell that person she loved so much she was leaving.

Then she remembers saying goodbye to her and how hard it was letting go of her and knowing she was not going to be a cab ride away anymore…

Then Vivian thinks to herself that maybe the day she said goodbye to Aster maybe it was goodbye to their relationship and cries because it hurts so much because she loves Aster so much and feels that everything they had is slipping out of her hads and there´s nothing she can do about it…