“Well for the past month or so I haven’t been having any visions of you” I looked at her unknowingly holding my breath. “You haven’t been with those dogs again?” she asked suspiciously. I froze in fear trying to think up a new lie, one not far from the truth.

“Umm well I have been seeing a bit of Jacob lately” I managed to rush out my hand trembling slightly.

“The thing is though I can’t even get visions of everyone else if your there with us.” She continued I looked at her shocked. “Its like there werewolves are almost following you somehow,” she sighed shaking her head “I just can’t figure it out. Can you think of anything that could have happened in the last month to block me out?”

My body froze, I was at a loss for words, and did that mean what I thought it did? Oh no, this can not be happening!

“Bella are you ok? Snap outta it.” Alice’s voice was thick with concern as I snapped out of my panicking premonition.

“I’m fine Alice,” my voice held a hint of impatience and worry as my eyes focused behind her to the bathroom. This lie was starting to come easier each time I said it; I’m fine, I’m fine, I’m fine.

Even if I got to the stage of being able to say it with it sounding false I would know the truth, I wasn’t ok and unless I got away now it would only get worse.

“Ok then Bella, you seem distracted so I’ll talk to you more about this when your more…yourself. Just maybe keep away from those dogs for awhile they always seem to cause trouble when you’re around.”

“It’s too late for that!” I wanted to yell out to her, to tell her what was happening, to have some support but she was already gone by the time I had looked up

I sighed deeply as I locked the bathroom door behind me; the click of the lock was comforting though I knew it would do nothing to stop a vampire from entering. It would however give me the few precious moments of privacy I needed before Edward came searching.

I looked down at the plastic bag with another stab of guilt as I took of the box out of the bag with shaking hands and read the instructions carefully. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath; it was time for the moment of truth.