You thought you were saved,
by destiny or maybe even god.
You had faith,
in life again.
How can life be so cruel,
when you get pulled into the darkness of a person.
While you are just living your life?


Late in the night..

The blonde girl began to kiss her in her neck but she pulled away from the way to drunk blondie and just stood staring at the person who had managed to frozen her world once.
“Sh…aaneeee.” the chick mumbled
“go away both of you…” Shane wanted to get her gaze of from Cherie but she couldnt.
“but shane come on.. im gonna shoooooowwww you myyy place”
“***** off I said! BOTH”
Cherie looked Shane in the eyes not going to leave
“you guys deaf? You!” she pointed towards Cherie “You broke my so called heart and You” turning to the girl “you just.. stepped on my foot… go away”
The girl was pissed now and said Fine! and went off just like that well she fell.. 3times.
She finally broke the gaze between the two and turned around staring at the ground feeling those emotions she had cut off for so long coming up again
She knew that it wasn’t love anymore she was now the person who just hurt her like ***** she so wanted to get away from Family Jaffe and she thought she did
“Shane…” Cherie said
“No…no… go away”
but she went on “I tried to find you so long I sended you gifts, letters.., Clea told me a while ago that she saw you well you know Steven and I broke up..” Shane cut her off
“so? look why are you trying to find me… you just did well.. good for you and by the way I moved so i didn’t got anything of your letters and ***** i’m leaving now you and I are over bye Cherie”
Shane walked away but Cherie grabbed her arm and pressed her lips hard against Shanes
“No…”

few hours later, sunrise

It was only 7am and she was still around, she wasn’t early, she was late..
Alice walked up to the big house and knocked on the door, after a few minutes the woman opened the door, eyes half open letting Alice in, she knew what was about to come.
Dana closed the door and Alice turned around.. “Dane we need to talk..”
“Yes we do..” Alice followed Dana towards the kitchen sitting at the table, the alcohol was still in her blood and her head was spinning a little. Dana started to made coffee for both
“look, this the second time it happened but this time its differend I dunno why I did it but I shouldn’t have done that.. kissing you..I mean I just… I.. *****..”
“Whoa the reporter has lost her tongue…”
“Shut up” Alice lowered her head looking at the table.
“Al… you okay?”
“Hmm? yeah whoa yeah just thinking”
“I told Lara…” Dana said softly looking at Alice trying to find her eyes but she seemed not to be here like at all
what was wrong with her? she thought
“You what? when?”
“Right after it happened..”
“Huh? but she didn’t threw shoes at me last night..” Dana chuckled and continued
“That kiss we had it didnt mean anything” She said carefully trying not to hurt Alice, she didnt knew if Alice was feeling something for her or not, she did knew that she was over Alice right? yeah cause what she had with Lara now was completly not like the first time. She was out of the big dark thing called closet, she became more self confident which is a good thing for her, she told Lara her story about how it was with Conrad who gave her so much pressure and Lara had giving apologies for just walking out like that and they became more closer every day, yep Dana was happy..
She continued “im not trying to hurt you but the way you kissed me, it wasnt you Al.. I mean where are you? with those always thinking brains of you?”
Alice looked up staring in Dana’s eyes.. and she knew she was right, there was nothing between them the kiss was only an escape for her real feelings for someone else.. and the fact that Dana didn’t kissed back was helpfull and painfull at the same time, wasn’t anybody interested in her? what if SHE wasn’t feeling anything for her? all those questions..
“Yeah.. ehh so… we are cool? and me and lara?”
“Yes Al…… okay please tell me what the ***** is going on are you sure you okay?
Silence filled the room she wanted to speak but nothing came out..
Dana walked over to Alice who was still sitting with her head low and pulled her up from the chair and in an hug.
Alice closed her eyes and sighed whispering: so fucked up..

Somewhere else

A slim figure slowly walked up towards the appartment.. “*****..”she muttered when she fell.. and tried to get up but her legs couldn’t. She looked down staring at the floor for a sec and used her arms to get there.
She was almost there.. please be home was the only thought in her head.
It was dark down the hallway she took so long before the frontdoor was in view, a trail of blood followed her and it didnt stop..

with all her strenght she knocked on the door, which seemed so loud but was almost not hearable. she tried again while stumbling up, her body was now leaning against the door, eyes closed feeling the sharp pain in her stomache red fluid running down from her face down her cheek her neck, it seemed everywhere. No one openend the door and she sank down against the door hoping that she will show up.

Dana’s House

After a few minutes Alice gathered herself and decided to go home
“I.. I… think.. i’m going h…home” Alice stuttered
Dana looked up standing face to face
“I’m gonna be okay.. I swear.. I need to put some things straight”
“Okay Al.. if anythings is up you know you can tell me mhm? i’m your friend!”
“I know dane…you really think it is okay to tell her?”
“absolutly.. why not?”
“I just don’t.. want to ***** up another friendship..”
“listen Al, our friendship has changed but tho in the end we always be good friends, that wont change and if you take that step to tell her it will be alright….” Dana finished: ” I dont think you can deny love…”

Flash
She felt her lips against hers before she could pull away, she so not wanted this.. pulled in this blackhole again.
Just when she had the force to pull away, Cherie stopped, eyes widened looking at the person behind Shane
the dark haired girl finally opened her eyes when she felt a strong hand in her neck
“well well look what I found…”
And she knew that this long night might never turn into day
End



Fairbanks place

Alice listened to every word Dana had said she couldn’t help but chuckle a little
“What?”
“Christ Dane.. since when did you became Yoda at 8 in the morning?
Alice’s words caused them both to smile
She gave her friend a hug and a kiss on her cheek and whispered
“Thank you..” Dana just nodded
and there she went… home.. god she needed sleep.

Dana cleaned up the coffee cups and made her way upstairs longing for the arms of the redhead
Lara pretended to sleep while every inch of her body was waiting for her lover
Dana crawled next to the beauty staring at her back letting her fingertips carress Laras spine
who sighed, almost not noticed by Dana
“I knew you were awake” Lara smiled and turned around throwing her arm on her lovers waist kissing her nose

————-

She felt better after this convo with Dana she was relieved that her friendship with the tennisplayer wasn’t over and she was even more surprised of Dana’s wise words, after all Dana was the last to know and Shane was yoda..
‘Oh shane’ she thought and walked down the street almost home..


Flash
“Noooooooooooooo” Cherie cried out and struggled to get out of the grip of Johnny one of Stevens men who was holding a gun.
she couldn’t bare to see Shane getting knocked out bij Steven himself
“She can be with whoever she wants…”he hit her again “but NOT with the woman who drove us apart you HEAR me? you *****!”

Shane had been here before, back on the streets years ago she had to be carefull there where lotta crazy folks out there. She was so glad she had a life again and then she met Cherie and all the trouble started again she wanted it to end, thoughts were running through her head, maybe she should have stayed on the streets, she tried to remember who took her off the streets.. as Steven never stopped and then… she remembered the person who saved her, years back “Alice.. ” she whispered… and Shane smiled as she looked Steven in his eyes
“What you smiling at? how dare you to smile like that, you!” he pulled out his knife, the dark haired girl closed her eyes saying goodbye in her head to her friends

but suddenly..
“BANG”
End Flash




So i close my eyes and turn my head away
and I hope it’ll be all right
fall into a restless sleep
while so many innocent die
that’s why I sing
Hail to all of us..



To be continued

Short lyric here above is from Anouk – Hail