Chapter 4

Spencer’s P.O.V

Here I am being dragged against my will. Stan came up with some stupid idea to bring our new client to Dawning. It was the club that we frequently go to after work.

‘What? I may be a social recluse but it doesn’t mean I can’t unwind.’ I usually just go there to get a quick drink then slip my hand in some girl’s pants or up her skirt.

‘Oh did I forget to mention? I’m gay, get over it’

So we walk towards them and I see Ashley eyeing me. I understand why, since the conversation was mainly between Aiden and Stan, and their choice of topic was quite disinteresting. I finally pay attention again when I hear Stan ask Aiden about going out. Ashley must have noticed the disinterest in my face because she declined the offer when Aiden asked her. I think it’s foolish of her, especially when it’s obvious, even to me, that she wants to go.

The shock in Aiden’s face doesn’t surprise me in the slightest. Even in highsc-

“C’mon Ash, it’s not like you to miss a party. Besides, there’ll probably be hot young women for us to hit on.”

I freeze and stare at him, wondering if I just heard what he said, correctly, then I snap my head to her. ‘What did he just…’ Before I can continue my thoughts, I hear myself blurting out.

“You’re gay” I say, then immediately start remembering my past.

I can’t think. My chest is burning and I feel it again. I simply stare at her knowing my mouth is slightly gaping and my eyes, just a little wider then normal.

Memories start flooding my head now. They were the ones I always wanted to forget. The ones I never wanted to remember.

“…Because only I see you…”

“…there’s nothing wrong with you being…”

“…Why won’t you accept it…?”

“…I don’t know what you’re talking about…”

“…Dyke! Dyke! Dyke…”

“…because you saw me…”

“…I love you, you know…”

I snap out of my daze when someone finally breaks the silence.

“Uh… You didn’t know?” Ashley says it as though it should be common sense.

I still can’t move though. I’m still thinking, screaming in my head. I hear Stan say something but my mental screams drown him out. I hear him again and listen since he directs it towards me.