Spencer’s POV

Latley I have been talkin to Trez about me being out to my family. I’m still scared to death. Not of my dad though, he would totally understand. It’s Paula who I’m very nervous about. Telling her that I’m gay, then seeing her eyes turn into ice and hatred. Ah, that image is too scary to go on! But I do honestly like Ashley. These dreams about Amy are being more and more frequent. Now they’re even day dreams. But they get more and more complictated and I end up being even more confused then normal. That’s why I have Trez, to explain things to me.

She says that these dreams are signs. Amy is a personification of something else. It could be another spirit, an animal, or even an emotion. We’re still not able to answer that. But Trez also thinks that Ashley could be a big part of these dreams. She suggests I let Ashley know that I like her, so there’s no confusion between us.

That brings us to today, Friday. I woke up feeling brand new. Today I’m going to go for a change. Not a drastic change, but enough for Ashley to notice, and maybe give a wakeup call to my family. I slide open my closet doors to find a gazillion polo shirts, skirts and jeans. Too Spencer. I need to go for Spence. I go beyond my closet to old plastic containers of t-shirts. I pull out a black band t-shirt that’s skin tight, espically around my breasts. I also find black skinny jeans and a studded belt. Oh Wow! My old Chucks! Perfect! I fix my hair, having it half up-half down, wearing a tint of black eyeliner and red lip gloss. Wow, if this outfit doesn’t scream lesbian I don’t know what else would. Oh, I forgot, Paula! She’s gonna totally go 20 questions on me when she sees me. Over my outfit I wear a bright pink American Eagle sweat shirt, even though it’s 94 degrees out side, but this should shut her up. I run downstairs grabbing an apple and rush out the back door yelling "Love ya too, Dad!" before noticing Paula wasn’t even awake yet. I completely dump the sweat shirt and start to walk. I text Ashley to pick me up at the end of my block to drive me to school instead of Glen. As she rides up her eyes go wide. I wonder what the fuck she’s thinking about.