Chapter 26: Lyrics Telling All

It was Friday afternoon and Spencer sat a picnic table alone waiting for Jared to pick her up. She just sat there and thought. She thought about Ashley mostly. The distinct color of her eyes, her softy curly locks, her toned tan body, her nose crinkling contagious grin, her husky voice, her insanely adorable dorkiness, everything that made up Ashley, she missed. And Spencer felt wrong that she missed her because she knew she was the one who screwed everything up. She shouldn’t be missing her because she chose not to be her friend anymore, to not feel that way about her, yet here she is sitting on the this old tattered paint seat, thinking of and missing Ashley.

Spencer sighed putting her head in her hands.

Why did I have to screw up one of the greatest things? But I should be happy. I have Jared and he is the sweetest most perfect guy and my parents like him. I should be happy, but I’m miserable.

Spencer lifted up her head and saw the girl that had been invading her thoughts riding on her skateboard to her car. She smiled when she remembered that Ashley had taught her how to ride. She saw the look of peace Ashley’s face held when she rode. It made Spencer happy to see the girl. At first she wouldn’t look in Ashley’s direction in fear of giving in and into what she’s been told was wrong but lately, Spencer had been staring at Ashley at any given moment. She would just sit in class and stare at the girl, miss the girl, want the girl even more then before.

Aiden: "You seem to be doing that a lot lately."

Spencer quickly turned around pretending as if she didn’t know what Aiden was talking about as she looked at him with confusion written on her face.

Spencer: "I don’t know what you are talking about."

Aiden smiled and sat down next to her.

Aiden: "I’m not stupid you know? You’ve been staring at her day in and day out or a couple of weeks. Why don’t you just talk to her?"

Spencer: "There are many reasons as to why I can’t, and you know that."