“Aunty Spencer” Came the sheepish words of the small boy.

“What’s up little man” She asked picking up Clay’s son and kissing him lightly on the nose.

“Can I have an ice cweam please” He asked so sweetly she didn’t dare say no.

“Go ask your mum, If she says yes ill go get you one” The small boy jumped from Spencer’s arms and ran to Chelsea begging her to let him have an ice cream.

He really was the cutest thing she had ever seen, well that was in fact a lie the cutest thing she had ever seen was Ashley first thing in the morning, before she had time to prepare herself for the world, before she had time to drink her coffee. Spencer loved seeing Ashley at the very first thing in the morning, it made her feel special because she got to see side vulnerable of the brunette that only a small hand full of people ever had.

She shook her head violently to rid herself of the thoughts that returned to her almost every minute of the day, but it wasn’t just the thoughts, she could handle them, she could even handle the hindsight of just giving up on their relationship the way she did. What she couldn’t handle were the images that haunted her soul, her smiling, laughing, crying, sleeping and waking those were the images she didn’t mind, it was the images of that night she hated.

“Stop it you two, I decide who I love, ME!” Ashley screamed at the two people she loved most in this world.

“Then just decide!” Spencer screamed back with so much conviction she startled in shock herself.

Those were the last words spoken before the gunshots sounded around them. She remembers Aiden pulling them both beneath him and pushing them to the safety of the ground. But worse she remembers hearing Ashley shouting Aiden’s name.

She was torn from her thought path by Jay tugging on her trouser leg.

“Cummon Aunty Spence, Mummy says I can have an ice cweam!” He begged her as he took her hand and tried dragging her towards the stall.

Spencer followed his lead to the small stall and ordered an ice cream and an OJ for herself. Waiting for the elderly lady to give them their order Spencer stood listing to her nephew who twittered on about how much he loves ice cream.

After what felt like a year the old women handed jay his ice cream before he ran off (to look at some ducks!) and gave Spencer her OJ as she turned to head back towards the group, Spencer collided with a person crossing her path.

The first thing she saw was the full contents of her cup covering the woman in front of her,  The second thing she noticed was who the women was.